When I was growing up, I always wanted my own family. I loved love but wanted to be realistic with my expectations of the world. After each heartbreak I would adjust my approach to people in order to hopefully keep my heart from breaking completely the next time.
I met a guy in church, we fell in love, got married, he changed and now I am divorced. Why didn’t God tell me not to marry this guy? Like, in none of my prayers or times of fasting? Disappointed.
I was in the midst of a staff meeting, being threatened with losing a job in a toxic environment that I knew I couldn’t afford to keep. With multiple degrees and almost a decade of experience, I had been praying and applying for jobs for months without a response – yet I was sitting here taking verbal abuse from people I no longer wanted to represent in the world. My integrity was always threatened by working for such characters. I was over it but God hadn’t opened any other doors. I could’ve moved in with one of my brothers. I could have roomed with a friend who was looking to moving himself. I could have…I could have… but no release from Holy Spirit so I stayed until the bitter end. Disappointed.
There are so many other examples I could share that many of us could relate to. The loss of a loved one when so many others we despise live long lives and seemingly prosper. People in authority abusing their power and being rewarded with money and access they don’t deserve. Coming down with an illness when you are the picture of health and fitness. Unable to bear children when a seemingly unfit couple continue to birth one child after another. Struggling through college only to be forced to accept a job working for people with a GED. Life just is not fair all of the time. Disappointed.
We are, however, people of faith – united by the one we call our Savior – and it is NOT our purpose to be glorified but to glorify our Creator by how we handle disappointment in this earth.
IT IS NOT FAIR!
What you are feeling is valid and true. But please hang in there! Remind yourself of past blessings to be grateful for and remember that God acknowledges all you do for the Kingdom of God!
The only way I am able to remain at peace with such situations is to be grateful for the blessings I am able to experience in this life AND remembering that nothing we endure is hidden from God – heaven KNOWS! Our submission of anger, frustration, and sadness is not miniscule in the sight of God. Christ walked this earth and therefore, experienced our human emotions and the affects of a broken heart by people close to Him. He KNOWS!
Be encouraged, your experiences are not a surprise to God and are not far from His heart. The absolute WORSE that could happen is that what you are hoping for doesn’t come to pass in the time you expect – it is during these times that I cry out to Lord regarding my concerns (AGAIN), fasting if necessary to receive truth on the matter or peace to move on. I need an ANSWER in receiving His promises or the PEACE necessary to move on and wait for His best for me.
Hang in there. You’re not alone. Disappointment is a reality but NOT a final judgement.
“Therefore, my beloved brothers and sisters, be steadfast, immovable, always excelling in the work of the Lord [always doing your best and doing more than is needed], being continually aware that your labor [even to the point of exhaustion] in the Lord is not futile nor wasted [it is never without purpose].” – 1 Corinthians 15:58 (AMP)