A little story about accomplishing a big author dream I had. In September 2003, I began shopping my first novel, One Man’s Treasure, to publishing houses through my (then) agent. For more than three years, it was repeatedly rejected. Though I never lost confidence in myself or the fact that my book was definitely mainstream worthy, I was outraged with the amount of time it was taking for this dream to manifest. At one point, the upset grew into desperation, and I literally used to cry myself to sleep with my manuscript either clutched in my arms all night, or with it next to my pillow, and I used to promise my characters, like a homeless mother with children, that I would “find us a home” in the mainstream world. I can’t even tell you how much “when is it gonna be tiiiiime?!” crying I did. It was exhausting, and quite pitiful, to be truthful.
For more than three years, I lost my mind trying to get one book deal, and now I had two, because I let go and moved on, happily. *Side note: I never intended to write a sequel, but the woman who convinced me to do it was one of the readers of my 2007 version of One Man’s Treasure. To this day, I still declare that And They’ll Come Home is my greatest literary achievement. It’s very special, complex work that I had no idea I could do, and I’m so in love with it. Thanks to Angela B. Brown’s convincing, I had the second book in the two-book deal almost done when it was offered to me.
Whatever you’re chasing after desperately, it won’t truly be yours until you can detach from it, find your peace, and move on without it, with confidence. This doesn’t mean you’ve given up or don’t want it anymore. It means you’re sure you’re gonna be okay without it. This is crucial. You can want something and still move about your life without its absence causing you major turmoil. It takes a lot of inner work to get there, but if I can do it, you most definitely can!