It has taken me way too long to accept this simple truth: maybe God actually likes me.
Like, we know He has to love all of us, but does He actually care for me? What if He’s not just ok with me but is thrilled with the personality He has gifted me with?
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
This revelation started almost 10 years ago… 10 years.
I was reading Psalm 139 and tears welled up in my eyes when I read that He understands me (v.2). Me? He understands me? I don’t even understand myself half of the time.
This chapter is where these well-known verses are found:
“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made…”
The God who created the universe…
…took time on me?
Psalm 139 was hard to forget and my self-worth has only built from there. My Father has taken time to walk with me through healing though it has taken me years to even accept being me.
Walking through the process of unlearning unhealthy beliefs and behaviors takes time, but self-love is truly the beginning of deep love. If you cannot show yourself compassion, any compassion you try to show others will fade. If you cannot value your own gifts and experiences, how can you value the diverse Body of people that God has surrounded you with? How can one who is impatient with him/herself have any patience for others?
The Passion Translation expresses Hebrews 12:6 as this:
For the Lord’s training of your life
is the evidence of his faithful love.
With every conflict, God is training us. He gives us opportunities to look in the mirror to see our pain and dysfunction only to reveal the truth of His redeeming love to us. How we behave and allow others to treat us is a reflection of our core beliefs about God and about ourselves.
Healing is a process, but thankfully we are not in this process alone. God is the author and perfecter of our faith. He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion. Not only that, but He also provided our brothers and sisters to sharpen us if we will allow them.
How amazing is it that you are so loved and known? That the Alpha and Omega numbers the hairs on your head?
Take time to meditate on this. What could God be presenting you in this season?