Fleeing Unashamed

"It is a belief you must possess in order to walk in victory. But belief should cause you to respond - oftentimes a physical response. It can be in gratitude, worship, or radical obedience."
I used to think that being saved also meant to present yourself to the world and your church in a certain way. I assumed that in order to belong to the Christian family, you had to appear strong in all things you walked through. It wasn’t until I took on the battle of abstinence that I threw those nuances out of the door.¬†
Being molested as a child creates doorways at a subconscious¬†level that in turn manifests in various ways for years to come. I was barely 6 years old when an uncle who was married into the family touched me inappropriately. He even told me that I would get in trouble somehow if I told my Mother or anyone about what happened. He obviously didn’t know what type of child I was nor was he privy to the warnings my Grandmother had already begun to share with me because¬†of her own childhood trauma. I couldn’t wait to tell my Mom and Grandma what happened and how they needed to put their words to the test and punish this bad guy for doing bad things to me.
Little did I know, lust and perversion would chase me for decades after and it would ultimately be up to me to decide if I was going to submit to the urges or learn how to combat them. 

“Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body”¬†1 Corinthians 6:18 NIV

When God releases you from a thing, take heed. Know Who’s you are and trust that God is more wise and more powerful than anything you may encounter in a person or a physical experience. It is a belief you must possess in order to walk in victory. But belief should cause you to respond – oftentimes a physical response. It can be in gratitude, worship, or radical obedience.¬†
“Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”¬†James 4:7 NIV
There was a time I saw myself having victory in being abstinent as a young adult, but it would not last very long. One day, I started to track dates in my history and realized that I was on a 3-month cycle. Every 3 years, I would give into temptation and fornicate. That made me mad, furious in fact. The enemy was tempting me on a schedule and I was falling for it! So I got radical. I no longer cared about what my friends, Christian or not, said about me – I was NOT going to allow the enemy to control me in this area of my life. I stopped hanging out with people who were fornicating. I stopped entertaining suitors who were fornicating. No more ‘dates’ inside a home. No more ‘vacation baes’. These were too tempting for me so they had to go! Any line I crossed where it seemed I could no longer hear God’s voice, I stayed back 50 feet! It might look like I was weak to the people around me, but I no longer cared. The Word of God said that I could flee from temptation if need be and so I did!¬†
Some people teased and taunted me claiming that I should have had more strength to be in tempting situations because I called myself a woman of God or a Christian. I got to a place in my faither where I stopped caring about people thought about my walk with God for the sake of being radically obedient. If I knew I needed to leave a scene, I did. God knows there were other issues in my life, but if God was willing to deliver me from this particular sin…so be it! One sin at a time if necessary! And I refused to allow the voices of others to shame me into accepting sin as my fate, simply because it was one of many.

“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.”¬†1 Corinthians 10:13 NIV
If you are on this Christian journey and realize that you have a lot to do, trust God’s timing, His voice, and the grace He has given you to tackle anything He highlights in you that is NOT of Him. Don’t allow the opinions of others, including other believers, stifle your growth by making you feel ashamed or condemned with your changes in behavior and everyday habits. You’ve got this!¬†
Yes, it is possible for you through faith in God – but remember that ‘faith’ isn’t something that is tangible, and oftentimes there is no physical evidence that faith is even at work. So don’t look for it, walk in it blindly and trusting God fully – your heart and mind will catch up because that is how powerful the act of renewing our mind daily can be.

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