Taking Authority( Choices)

I experienced trauma starting as a little girl, my Mom was a single mom for a long time.  She was in and out of abusive relationships until I turned fifteen.    I am the oldest daughter aka called the second mom, which I resented by the time I was an older teen.  I grew up feeling responsible for my mother and my six younger siblings as a little girl.    I am a mother of four including grandchildren.  There is not a day that goes by that I don’t feel responsible for others and want everyone to be safe.  The fear seems to be at the root of my soul at times.  Why?  Because I grew up not feeling safe.  Daily, I have to talk to myself(positive self talk) and make sure I am walking by faith, and casting my cares on God. Some days are better than others, but I am mindful of what my triggers are such as hearing that someone else’s loved one has been hurt. I am aware of my feelings so then I begin to take authority over my negative energy right away.